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Monday, November 24, 2014

This is Draining.

Everything is draining the life out of me.

School is so tiring, it makes me feel that no matter how I try to succeed, I am not good enough.
I don't know how many times have I cried due to my own failures.

Why is life like this? Why does it have to be so complex?

Sunday, November 23, 2014

Going on a Hiatus

I'm going on a hiatus after I finish these last two cosplay plans. I realized that there are things that I should prioritize and there are goals outside the hobby that I want to achieve, namely traveling. I want to save up for that after I graduate.

Now that acads are getting harder and demanding, and with my thesis starting anytime soon, I do not have the time anymore. I will still attend cons in 2015, but I will not produce new costumes. Maybe I'll just wear my old cosplays. I'll also have shoots sometimes. I might or might not go back doing the hobby, but it was really fun. It was nice meeting new people even if I really do not talk that much due to my shyness. :)

Friday, January 3, 2014

Touko Fukawa Cosplay

Hi there everyone! It's been a long time since I last blogged.

And hey, it's 2014! I wanna greet everyone a Happy New Year! yayy!
The past year has really been a hectic one for me, but it had really been great and worthwhile.

We had a Danganronpa Photoshoot before the year ended. It was our last shoot for 2013. I was with Argenn who cosplayed Junko Enoshima and Kenn who cosplayed Togami Byakuya.

Moving on, here are my pictures~

These are my favorite shots :) 

 Genocider Syo Cosplay

Touko Fukawa Cosplay 

The shots turned out great. The shoot was a success~ ^__^
Till next time, JA!

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Feeling Horrible

There are times when I feel so horrible. I feel as if everyone is against me.

My family, friends, and the world.

I feel so alone, with no one to talk to. I don't want to be like this.
Lately, I've been feeling happy, but then does this come with a price?
How can I be truly happy without sacrificing anything?

People getting mad at me even though it's not my fault.
People judging me without even knowing the whole story.
People blaming me even though I did not do anything.

Sometimes, I just hate the world.

Friends backstabbing you.
Friends appearing as if they are true.
Friends using you to gain something.


Am I doing things right?

2013 has been really an amazing year for me. A lot of opportunities opened up for me, especially when it comes to cosplay. I met a lot of new people who shares the same hobby as me.

2013 is also the year in which our group is complete again, because one of our friends went home from the Land of the Rising Sun.  

2013 is also the year in which I went out with a guy alone, and I would like to talk about that.

Yes, I am already of legal age, but I have no experience or whatsoever. I don't know if that was called a date, but I would like to call it "friends watching a movie together". I really did not expect that we would be in this terms with that guy since we knew each other since before. We meet in conventions a lot and were good acquaintances. We also have met sometime in the past. Everything was really unexpected.

Well, I am not in a hurry. All I have to do is just go with the flow.

Que sera sera. :)

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

All of Those Feelings are Gone

All of Those Feelings are Gone

 I never thought my feelings for your would cease,
It’s as if they were really strong and I was at ease,
Maybe I was just swayed by all the teasing done by our peers,
I realized that it was one-sided throughout the years.

Almost two years of liking you is no joke,
It was even triggered by our classmate’s yoke,
When I see you, my heart beats fast,
I thought to myself, “Oh, how long would this last?”

One day, I just woke, upon seeing you; it does not feel special,
I realize that in my life, you are not essential,
All my life, you’ve just taken me for granted,
You on the other hand, did what you just wanted.

I never thought that all of those feelings would cease,
And I am right now at ease,
I am happier without my mind not being occupied by you,
Not seeing you does not even make me feel blue.

I realized that I deserved to be treated better,
This poem, I’ll prove that I am not bitter,
I should value myself more than I did,
And hey, please remember that this poem does not kid. 

My affections for you are gone, and I’ve never been happier.

Monday, December 2, 2013

Asa na ma ni padulong?

Oh my gosh. wala na ko kasabot kung asa na ni padulong. O____O